but

Slowly
Glance
Out of one eye
One toe forward
Retreat
One step
One and a half forward

Hesitant
Afraid
Wary

Trust me
I will look after you

but

How will she know this one is for real?

[just a thought]

.

I am not gonna let this get me down I am not gonna let this get me down I am not gonna let this get me down I am not gonna let this get me down I am not gonna let this get me down I am not gonna let this get me down I am not gonna let this get me down no I am not gonna let this get me down I am not I am not going to I am not I am not gonna let this get me down no no no no I am not gonna let this get me down no I will not I am not gonna let this get me down I am not gonna let this get me down I am not gonna let this get me down .......


.... besides that's what they want anyway
to see me down

[just a thought]

I need

I need time to sit and think.
my world has become identical days strung together
and time ticks by

have I changed at all in six years?

maybe I have done full circle on myself.

I need to sit and talk this out

I need to write poetry
if it's pretty it will free me
I need to carve something beautiful
out of my confusion
and re-feed it back into my brain
to give me a better outlook
I need.

[just a thought]

a voice

I have been sworn to silence, my world. I am a bird who cannot sing. will you listen to me, blank pages? empty world? will you hear the weight of my heart, help me lighten it? I am not strong enough to hold it all up on my own... I need someone to listen, but I need someone who will understand.

maybe only my own ears are suitable to hear my mind spoken out loud.

[just a thought]

if and if not

where honesty is a policy best left unpursued, life can become a meaningless void of things almost said, of heavy sensations in the chest, of ill feelings disguised as normal behaviour, silent resentment, and the sometimes slow process of forgetting.

"I expected friendship from my friends
How mistaken were my notions of these trends.
When will the tree of friendship bear fruit?
I have planted seeds of many strains & blends." hafiz

[just a thought]

if and if not

where honesty is a policy best left unpursued, life can become a meaningless void of things almost said, of heavy sensations in the chest, of ill feelings disguised as normal behaviour, silent resentment, and the sometimes slow process of forgetting.

who will cave first and who will be right?

[just a thought]