Monday, August 31, 2009

Sometimes it's not the being alone that gets to you...
It's the infinite waiting.
It's the clock who seems to move his hands to his own time, and often to spite you.

Why do we choose this?
Do we choose this misguided fate, or just accept it?
...There is nothing more to do when one's heart is weak from loving.

There is no body to comfort me at night.
Just an ethereal voice who comes when I call.
If I were to smile - or cry - would this voice know?

Nobody knows the torture of an unsure mind like I do.
Nor the torture of the silent waiting.
It is said every lover feels alone in his love and pain - but mine, mine is unique.

Am I the first to feel so?
I am not the only one who greets each day with the hope that her loved one will return, but it feels as though I were.

I am a selfish lover, and where once I would train myself out of this, today I am proud.
There is no greater love than that which defies distance, time, and persuasion.

Sometimes it is no help to write and coax the pain from behind your eyes to dance afront them.
And so, I have not written.
For fear that he would read my fears and see a bleeding heart where it is just scratched,
I have not written.
For fear of him seeing me falter in weakness,
For fear of tricking him into guilt,
I have not written.

For fear,
For fear....
For fear of being alone.

I have always said that we are sent lessons.
I will yet conquer my greatest fear.
I will yet craft beauty from my heartache and confusion.
I will yet rise above everything you see written here,
To claim the only love I have ever really wanted
He is Mine.

"Love of mine
This fortress in our hearts
Feels much weaker
Now we're apart"

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Monday, August 24, 2009

So, it seems you are to drag from me another chance
Which I must be open to, because it is for the best
If this works out....
Just when I prided myself on letting go,
I am told to hold on,
And I cannot not listen.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

So what is it you say behind my back,
That makes you look at me like that?

Thursday, August 20, 2009

It is not fair, to deny your loved ones, for your peace of mind.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

So who is the real man?
The man in anger exposed,
Or the one who hides behind his good mood...
Which one?

Thursday, August 13, 2009

If you don't want to die of a broken heart
You must not fall in Love-Forever

Monday, August 10, 2009

And gradually, it is in less words
That one learns to say more.
In simple observations and unfinished sentences

A simple wish,
I would have someone walk with me
But noone, it seems
Will walk.
And it is fine by me,
If you are too busy knowing everyone else
To know me.