Why is it
That we chase the ones who constantly disappoint us?
And push away the ones who are always there.
I aim to fix all of my mistakes
But ignorance never bred perfection
So I need you to show me where I step out of line
I don't want to be a hypocrite like you
I, in turn
Will show you your faults
Because this is what I want you to do for me
I point out your mistakes,
Not,
Because I want a fight or to attack you
Not,
Because I hate you
But,
Because I love you
And,
I want to keep you
And
Not keep resentment
Please do not misunderstand my intentions
I do not want to be left alone
Just when I begin to rely on you again
You let me fall
Am I chasing disappointment like you?
Or am I getting what I deserve,
Because I believe that your pain is because of how you have hurt me?
Said, "I died for you one time, but never again"
Never again, never again, never again
Never again, never again, never again....
Brand New
13 comments:
Reading this rips at my soul...please let me know you are okay.
"That we chase the ones who constantly disappoint us?
And push away the ones who are always there." Why this happens is one thesis if there is one to my autobiography-finished today. I am done writing for a while (need a week to relax), but I welcome a good conversation from a good friend.
Why point out his faults and not accept him for the way he is?
You can't mold someone into what you want and be happy ever after.
I think you either find a common ground and go on from there or you're in for disappointment.
Do you have faults? I haven't noticed any so far...
Human nature. Animal nature. Nature.
Play hard to get. It's just a game.
Chris, Oh, I am okay, merely over-dramatic as usual, it would seem in retrospect...
Walker, why assume it was a he? I agree completely, but what if someone would fix their faults, but is unaware? Arent you doing them a favour by pointing their faults out then?
Gordie, :) oh i like to think that i don't! and surely, that is a fault in itself...
Siegfried, I don't play games...
Why not? What you think is what matters.
interesting post-since you have been following me I felt somewhat obligated to let you know although my blog will stay up, emails will be the only way to get new info (poems) and my book site has been closed to invited viewers only. Im having a lot of trouble with the online community and just being honest here, my therapist has sugested that I just write offline and not blog anymore, ever. I can still visit others, but I will not read or respond to comments on any of my sites because I have a stalker who is really making my life a living hell. I would appreciate you taking this down after you read it as I don't have your email or I would have sent it there, or maybe I do and I am lazy. Mine is very obvious and centered on my blog up top. If you want to read the story sometime let me know and I can give access to your screenname on blogger. Unfortunetly I cannot even post a goodbye or anything on my blog because it has come to this point where I don't know if the next blogger that comes along is the stalker in disguise until it's too late and I am too sick of bothering. I just have to move on. I welcome any emails, those I can filter to some extent, but in an effort to save my marriage-this is the choice I have made.
Respectfully,
Chris
ps-i am going to miss you the most
You don't play the game. But the other might be.
I don't like playing games too. I'm just like you. I'm a Wussy. ;)
You can't change another person so at some point we need to rinse ourselves from being a masochistic martyr and stop tilting at windmills.
Aside from the pheremones (out of our control) and preconditioned culturally imprinted preferences (we can modify them), we can use logic and reason when finding a mate or partner...just like Mr Spock..oh yeah Vulcans had those mating fever thingamabobs, never mind.
Like any other shopping expedition you need to have a budget (how much sh*t am I willing to tolerate and how much affection and attention etc?)
so you need to do some market research.
You need to know whether you're buying or leasing,
why you need it,
can you live with a reasonable facsimile,
and what sort of warranty you can expect to protect your investment...which in Human terms is restricted to chance, genetics and personal history.
But let's face it, out of 3billion potential candidates, even if only 1% were in the ball park that is a pretty good start...
50% of them are doable in a pinch but kinda short or crooked smile..
50% of that group is not bad/alright a little needy..
50% of them are pretty good/good enough but they better have money..
50% of that is nice and very polite..
50% of them are now we're talkin' we'll see if they remember my grandmother's maiden name ..
50% of that is here's my number but if I ever catch you talking with your ex it's over..
and 50% of them are take me now but this doesn't mean we're goin steady
and 50% of that is let's play house
and because half of those bomb that still leaves you with atleast 5,859 people that you could be in love with for a decade or more (statistically speaking)...
of which 50% will also fail so I guess there are only about 3,000 people on the planet that are almost perfect for you.
I hope this helps.
You're right I was assuming but either way what are the faults.
What if they are part of your personality.
How do you change who you are and live a life thats not your.
If it doesn't work won't it lead to resentment no matter who it was that changed.
If the fault is something like substance abuse then thats a no brainer but if you are a shy person and its part of your being won't becoming an open fun loving raving lunatic be out of charactor.
Basically what I am saying is when you change you're not the person you were.
If that's what you want and are comfortable with it then cool but if it's in your nature to be this way wouldn't it be a lie to pretend you're not?
BTW I love your posts and I'm not trying to be difficult.
It's part of my nature.
Siegrfried - Im not a wussy!! and i don't think anyone's playing games here!
Chris - :( That's awful, Im sure you have my mail - I'd be interested to read!
Common - Well, thanks :O
Although.....this wasn't about my man...! (He's perfect) and now you've convinced me EVEN MORE (if that was possible) of what a catch he is :P
Walker - Yeah, I know what you mean and heck, I've thought of all of that but it doesn't change the way I instinctively feel, unfortunately
You're not a Wussy. I am! ;)
there's a lot of sadness in this poem--I hope in your life it's like you said in a comment, you being overly dramatic. Have a blessed day.
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