Fightstar

"they liked you better when you were
dead"

Just wondering, does that refer to Charlie being "dead" in Busted but the public liking him better that way and resenting his walk-out? If this is a stupid question excuse me 'cause i don't live in England, okay?

Hehehe

The other day i was walking in the park- walking my two dogs and my border collie was swimming in the lake the she comes out and lo and behold i saw what i thought was a dragone like 1.5m long, green, scaly...come out of the lake and me dog tried to eat it, then it tried to eat my dog. I thought it was the Loch Ness monster and I was cursing that I didn't have a camera.

I found out it was an iguana- apparently they can grow to lengths of 3m. That is amazing, it was like something out of Jurassic Park! I really cannot believe such things can exist, they must be like the last living closest things to dinasours! You learn/see something new every day, huh?

Sheesh

well

it's been a long time and i gues no-one really cares 'cause no-one reads this thing, so i'm writing for posterity if such a thing exists or ever can exist on the net.

Respect

Is respect not earnt rather than demanded? Because personally I believe that respect has to be earnt- and that people who demand respect unjustly do not deserve it. The right does not lie with you to decide whether or not people should have respect for you, it lies with the people that choose to have respect for you. Of course a certain amount of respect should be given to those elder than you- but they have to deserve it, it is not a constant, it can be easily lost. If a criminal is an old man does that mean you have to have respect for him? No. So, he's been around for longer than you, so what? He lost his repesct, or maybe he never even deserved it, and that is the thing to remember.

I had a frustrating day, with people attacking me for opinions which my well-being does not depend on. I was only trying to defend the innocent, for there is no need to make the innocent pay for what was done to you. However, it seems I am the only person I know who holds this ideal, and so I was attacked. By six people none the less. One would think people would be more thoughtful. If the youth are the future, and that is the youth then I don't wanna be around for the future of this country. That's the unfortunate truth.

BUT

And yet sometimes for sanity's sake we shut up and take it. "It" being whatever it may be, and sanity being the closest attainable thing to it.

Keep on pretending and it might come true

You can pretend something doesn't exist, but that doesn't make it go away...does it?

Lyrix pt 1

I don't wanna be a puppet for you
Don't wanna bite the hand that's feeding
I don't wanna be a sucker for you, oh yes you
I hate myself for begging
I hate myself for staying
I hate myself for listening to,
You, you, you, you, you

Do you like it
O.L.P

I got a jack russell puppy and he's gorgeous!

I am so mad

I am so mad right now 'cause someone had the audacity to comment that my blog was "boring". If you don't like it, shut up. Yeah, you're free to comment but within the limits of decency. It seems my grasp of the language is higher than his and that makes my blog not suitable for his entertainment purposes.

Constructive criticism. Look into it.

New Years

Can't believe how fast the years fly by. Seems like only a month ago I started Gr11, now Gr12 is looming on the horizon! The last year of school...

As exciting as it is nearly being finished with school and so on, it's also kind of scary. Scary 'cause we're about to be thrown out of our safety nets into the big bad world to fend for ourselves and realise that all those fairy-tale dreams we held so dear in our childhood are a lot harder to achieve than we ever dreamed possible.

We've got to decide what we want to do with our lives. Decisions, decisions! What to study, where to study, wether to study further. How are we going to pay our bills? Like a game of "The Sims" where your family moves in and then realises that to have money, you have to work for it. Work- imagine that. Call me spoilt but the notion of working in a job that requires no qualifications and is of minimum pay is scary...

Yep, it's a scary world out there, and boy do we realise that when we start nearing the end of our school careers. We've got to earn our keep, and give up on little luxuries- for a while anyway.

Let's just hope we are all successful in whatever we choose to do and that we all study hard this year and do the best we can :) Here's to 2005!!

The nature of the beast (humans that is)

With questions of trust being ever-present in my life, I often stop to question the motives of those around me. Yet one tends to assume that one's dearly beloveds have good intentions. It's a sad day when one inevitably realises that everyones's motives are questionable, yes, even one's family members.

Having always held my family (by this I mean extended family) in such high regard it came as a shock to me to realise that they are not perfect. I guess having the fairy-tale's definition of a perfect life for too long kind of blinded me to the obvious when it reared its ugly head. Call me idyllic but I just wanted to believe that some people out there had my interests at heart. Turns out everyone is as selfish as the next person. Does no one think like me? Is no one not completely self-centred? Is being brought up to be well-mannered a disadvantage to a person in this day and age?

It just seems that we (the human race) are slowly reverting back to our savage natures. For all the conditioning, and the civilisation. What goes up must come down, and so I suppose what develops must ultimately reform back to its original state.

It just seems sad that I am not reforming with the rest of the race. Maybe my civilisation was too extreme.

Inspiring

"I thought it was strange to assume that it was abnormal for anyone to be forever asking questions about the nature of the universe, about what the human condition really was, my condition, what I was doing here, if there really was something to do. It seemed to me on the contrary that it was abnormal for people not to think about it, for them to allow themselves to live, as it were, unconsciously. Perhaps it's because everyone, all the others, are convinced in some unformulated, irrational way tha one day everything will be made clear"

The words of Eugeune Ionesco, French writer of absurd affection e.g. "The Chairs" (1952)
For more on absurdist/existentialist theatre: http://www.kat.gr/kat/history/Txt/Gl/Existentialism.htm

It's fascinating, am studying it at school.

Thoughts on the Asian Tsunami

I was just thinking... It's almost as if the tsunami is natures way of saying "If tens of thousands of people needed to die, I have my own way of dealing with it" and telling humans to leave the killing to nature? I don't know, maybe other people also think this?

A picture that struck me as really cool

Cruelty to animals, the question of life

Life.

The questionable debate of putting homeless animals to sleep- read my previous post. I DO NOT agree...

In the words of OLP (that's Our Lady Peace for those of you that don't know)

"Life is waiting for you
It's all messed up but we're alive
Life is waiting for you
It's all messed up but we'll survive"

That kind of proves my theory. Life, just having life is more important than what happens. External circumstances are only integral to some degree. We have Life, and that is the most important thing.

Thank God to all those people at the animal help centres. See www.wetnose.org.za.

Cruelty to animals

Went to an animal adoption agency today, to go see if we could find another dog to adopt, because recently my Maltese (Sammy) died of old age and my Border Collie (Holly) is lonely. We adopted Sammy from the SPCA so we thought we'd adopt another one in his memory.

Besides, it's not fair to buy a new dog when there are so many innocent dogs that need to be given a home, is it?

So we drove for what seemed like ages and got there and it stank- I mean literally. They have a policy at this place not to put animals to sleep like the SPCA does- and it got me wondering... Is that right? Personally I think it is spot on, but it could be argued that they don't have much of a life being cooped up in cages. But they're living, they're breathing- isn't that better than not?

Blogging, eh?

Blogging.
Sounds easy enough... everyone's doing it, aren't they? Humph. So I decide to get my own- Well when your English teacher praises you as a gift from the Gods you start to think that maybe you can write. So you go out and set your stuff loose on the world. See what others think of your stuff, get some recognition.

I'm only beginning to learn that life is very different from school. It's a rough world out there, and quite frankly, I'm a nobody. Yep. Nobody reads my blog, nobody really cares what I have to say. And no, I'm not feeling sorry for myself or being pessimistic. I'm just saying. That's the truth and you gotta accept it. Whether you like it or not.

So here it starts. My blog. Not like I'm gonna change the world with my writing but in some little way, maybe this will make a difference. I dunno, wishful thinking maybe- but you gotta have hope.

So I read all the help sites and whatnot, I read the dos and don'ts, and I'm all set. I've been warned that first posts are usually pretty rubbish- so if you're reading this and you don't like it don't be too discouraged. This is the only beginning, everything has to start somewhere.

Later.